Wow,
Been a long time since I've updated. I have basically been going to school and working. I work for a chemical company full time doing research and product development. I love it because it is a huge learning experience for me. I hope they decide to keep me around :)

Living in Waukesha is a change to say the least. I miss being on the Eastside, blocks from friends and things to do rather than miles and miles. Oh well, I guess this is part of being all grown up. Now I just have to figure out the rest of my life!

Updates

Not much new here, got hired at Essential (summer internship) full time so ROCK ON. STEIN AUF!... yea, it's late, I have an exam in 8 hours. Have to study but would rather sleep. UCK> Well just listening to some friend's tunes... digging it. Sleep time.
PEACE.

Oh Them Changes!

So it has been about a month since I last posted. Things have changed... the year has, my age has, I have as a person, I wish my job had. No luck there. I have been really busy but still found time to enjoy myself and spend time with awesome people. Christmas was a blessed time for sure, even though it was really difficult. My grandma made it and knew what to do when she felt she had to. We all miss my grandpa, but I know she is very lonely. It is difficult for me to hear her talk about being ready to die. I don't know what to tell her, but I know that no one is ready to let her go just yet!
My dad bought an awesome drum set and is really getting back into his music. It is commendable because it has been more than 20 years since he last played and he sounds pretty good already! Some say it is a mid-life crisis, but I think he just needed a hobby, something that he could do to pass the time at home and have a good time doing it! I love my parents, they are just awesome, loving people.
My birthday was definitely a blast. I am so glad that both my sisters were here and my friends, at least the ones that could make it! I had so much fun, despite the few moments that were less than great. Overall it was a great night, did a few things that were very unlike me, but I don't regret it. I know that I probably won't do that ever again, but it was definitely fun! Thanks to everyone for making it awesome :)
That's about it right now, for whoever reads this! NIGHT~

Sad day

So this morning a family member passed away. I just found out that she was ill last night and it is a little tough to take. I wish I could have said goodbye, but at least her children and sister were there. She will be greatly missed, she was so funny. Rest in peace Aunt Judy.

That time of year

So it is getting to that time of year where the semester is winding down and the days go by faster and faster. I just want the semester to be over and most of all I want to go home. I am tired of being down here alone and so far from my family. Most college students want to get as far away from home as possible, but I love my family so much and I want to spend as much time as I can with them. My grandma has been getting down lately, especially because it is almost one year since my grandpa passed away. I hardly ever get to talk to her and if she died while I was away, I would be devastated.
I also just don't want to work for a while, too bad I can't afford that! I am just so fed up with not getting paid what I am worth and being forced to put so much time into it. It is affecting me, and not in a good way!! I need a dang life! HELP.

Ah fun

Wait... fun? What is that? I don't know anymore, all I do is work! Yes, the money is nice and also needed, but damn, I have NO life!!!! It is driving me nuts! I can't hang out with anyone, ever! And when I make plans, something happens like a jackass calling in right before his shift and asking me to figure it all out for him, screwing me and my plans over. Very frustrating, not to mention a shitty thing to do to your coworkers. It really sucks because I REALLY wanted to go out with my friends tonight, and I was hoping for things to happen the way I thought they would, but no, I ended up at work, covering for the same person, again. Why don't things work out like we plan or dream they would? Why does life have to get in the way? Int he past few weeks, I have just been so irritated by people at work, my roommates, school.... ugh. I just need some time to get away! I also am starting to feel worn out and somewhat lonely because I have no social life... definitely frustrating. I guess I will have to get over it... doesn't seem to be changing anytime soon. Oh well, I have to get to bed now, I am pooped!

Late nights!

So it seems as though I end up staying awake later and later every night. It is so frustrating because I want my normal sleep pattern back! Damn this! Is it too much to ask for to be able to go to bed at 10pm and wake up at 7? I guess so, because I am going to be around three and getting up at 730. Not the best, then when I have to close for work, I don't get to sleep until like 530-6. IT SUCKS. Oh well, I am assistant manager now and I have a little more money coming to me. Not much, but it is better than less. Bills just never stop coming, even more frustrating. I am just really pleased with how I am personally reacting to everything. I would typically be super-stressed right now and be moody and mostly in an unhappy but not cranky mood. I have gotten really tired of being single, but I am content. If anything is meant to happen, it will. I am not about to push myself into uncomfortable or unusual situations just to be un-single. I find my self being quite happy and enjoying life. I guess it is because there is also so much good happening with the tough stuff. I got my volunteer position at Columbia St. Mary's, my job is going well, with hours pretty much guaranteed now, my classes are going well with the exception of one which is rough goings but I am getting help. I am making a few great friends and building other relationships to an even better level. I guess I have really been blessed lately and I should not complain about the very few negative things happening and remember that they are happening for a reason.
I cannot wait to see my family, I am so excited! I also can't wait for Christmas. I have my lights up and am just waiting for the music to be on the radio. I LOVE Christmas music. It is so cheerful and it just gives me a warm fuzzy feeling inside! Ah yes, I am also ready for snow, but seeing as how it is still in the 50's, that is not going to happen anytime soon. I guess so long as there is snow on Christmas and my birthday I am happy. Woo, two months til my birthday and I plan to really celebrate. Not only for me but my sister too since her b-day is the day after mine. Also to celebrate and remember my grandpa. It is almost a year, and that week is going to be tough for everyone, especially my grandma and my dad.
Ah yes, well I have to find something that will keep me awake now until my sis comes to get me. I have much to do tomorrow, I have to find a scrub top, make myself look like the living dead doc haha and sleep! Oh and I guess I could do some homework too... PEACE!